I was in the fourth grade
Most of the other children were playing soccer,
Twenty or thirty boys on each team, just a mob of running screaming kids going up and down the field like some Mongol horde.
Something caught my eye on the edge of the field.
Nothing was there, just some bushes and a hole in the fence.
I had the feeling then that I was making a decision that would define the rest of my life.
I walked to the bushes and through the hole in the fence, then sat there on a big rock by myself while the other kids played.
I decided that I was going to be a loner for the rest of my life.
I sat there on that rock, and realized that nobody even noticed I was gone.
Every day at recess I’d go through the hole in the fence and through the bushes to go sit on that rock by myself.
Here I am forty-two years old,
And in a way, I’m still sitting on that same rock.